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A Return to Our Town
Its the first time in about 5 months I’ve been back to the city he and I called home. The last time I was here, I was finishing packing my apartment – it was just 3 months after he died. It was so...
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My Heart will Fly with You…
I have amazing friends. Recently, one of my best girlfriends made this beautiful poster for me. I broke down in tears when she sent it to me… I was so incredibly touched by this gesture of love and her...
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Where We Are Woven
There is a knowing that I have been entirely unraveled by your death and woven back together again into a new creature… with parts of you blended into the very fabric of me for all time. There is a...
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Dream On
Over the past 8 months there have been many songs, quotes and messages coming to me with the theme of dreaming and continuing to dream my dreams in my life going forward. One of the most notable being...
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Cemetery Songs: Dreaming my Dreams
Another dream-themed song that came up the other night… its an old one I haven’t heard in a long time, but I knew it was something I wanted to add to my list of songs I take with me out to the cemetery...
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Your Eyes
Your eyes… Blazing rings of tawny hazel hugging the center of soft electric blue pools. In our time together, I watched them become the gentlest eyes I’d ever known the most joyful and peace-filled...
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Grieving in Dreams
I have had the same dream it feels like 10,000 times in the past 8 months… the details always change, but the overall story is always the same. In some form you choose to leave me – you’re still alive...
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Healing Milestones
I’m just a day away from selling at my first art festival… and my emotions are all over the place. I’m SO excited, this is something I’ve dreamed of since I was a little girl. Every summer, I went to a...
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Celebrating your Birthweek
You and I didn’t just celebrate birthdays, we celebrated for an entire week. I mean why not? Sure its extravagant, but aren’t we allowed to be if we want to? Looking back now, I’m more glad than I ever...
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Stardust
All of the sands of time could not erase you from me. You are in my bones… in every rising sun. You are in the small graces that comes to me and in the way the wind whips through my hair. Even in the...
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Cemetery Songs: Heaven
I’ve always loved this song, and Brandi Carlile’s version really sings to my soul… It makes me think of the day the we’ll be together again. No matter how long the wait, that’s gonna be a great day....
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The Landscape of Grief
The past few weeks have been truly difficult. His birthday has been like a tsunami of emotion, followed by a few other special occasions back to back – and I am left feeling broken. As times goes on,...
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Cemetery Songs: Wagon Wheel
Drew and I loved this song – he’d put it on at least once on every road trip we went on, and frequently just when we were cruising around Dallas. We’d sing along… he’d play some air guitar and I’d...
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There Will Be Days
Have you ever found yourself leaving little notes to your future self in a very unaware fashion? Every now and then I seem to do this… finding only some years later that its as if the me back then knew...
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Notes from a Pilot
“Call the camera place. You are amazing and I consider myself lucky to call you my girlfriend. I love you soooooo much. Your Pilot.” Reminding me to call about renting a camera lens for the weekend to...
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Poetry: The Burial Site
Oh the importance that your burial site holds to me. It brings me physically closer to you, But even more than that, it represents the essence of your spirit - as concrete and never-fading as your love...
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Things I Miss… My Biggest Fan
You know what I really miss? I miss creating a completely stellar new photo and showing it to you and watching your reaction. I’ve taken some of my most beautiful photos since you died… some that even...
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Celestial Flight
This poem was written by a WW II WASP to the mother of another female pilot who died in action when her B-52 crashed on October 2nd, 1944. It is so beautiful, and is the way that I think all of us want...
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Trauma to Truth
My friend Jessica Brogan over at In Search of Dessert recently began a wonderful series called Trauma to Truth, where she shares the stories of others who have faced extreme traumas and what truths...
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Cemetery Songs: Angel
I’ve always loved this song in its original version, but the other night I happened to catch this one by Sarah Simmons… I’m convinced this young singer is going places. I was blown away by her presence...
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